someone get me off

[mandywith11]

my butt and give lots of motivation to carry on
i aint done anything and i mean anything ive literally fed the kids and thats it
the house is a tip
cant dry the dam washing
running an electric heater which is costing a boomin fortune but its better than freezing to death
no gas
no energy
still not eating/sleeping
i feel like im about to collapse in a heap
i really need to tidy but cant and i know the longer i leave it the worst it will get
my HS is at its worst
can i wake up from this nightmare soon

[apple]

Ohhh
I´m not a great help... But I would like to wish you the best.
Look for the support of your friends or family....
I really don´t know how to help.
A respectfull hug for you.

[Anjie Evans]

OM MY GOD MANDY!!! I've been thinking about you for days.

You know what the only thing was that got me off my arse when my fiance died? My babies. Yes I was at rock bottom and for a short while I wanted to die too, but then one day I woke up and realised that they needed me.

Nothing else matters Mandy. Those kids need you!! Have a good scream, shut yourself away and scream and shout and cry until you are all cried out, then get yourself together and start sorting this mess out.

I don't know why you haven't got any gas/heating so I can't comment on that - if its because you can't pay the bill then get in touch with your utilities provider. USUALLY they are very helpful if you just talk to them. There are things they can do i'm sure!! If its to do with the fire then surely they should have sorted that out by now.

Get someone to have Paige and the other little ones for an hour or so, while you have a tidy up - just one room! Make a start, it doesn't matter if you don't finish, you're doing SOMETHING! If you're not there for your kids, then who is? Be strong, you have to be strong for them. Fall apart when they are in bed, but keep your chin up and be strong when you are with them.

You will get through this shit time Mandy, it may not seem like it now, but you will.

Anjie,x.

[mandywith11]

things settling kind of
ive started but not anywhere near finnishing
im allways there for the kids and as for screaming well id get arrested lol because i just wouldnt stop
as for gas well we were lucky
council came to check what needing repairing and told me as a precaution turn off gas because a pipe was swollen, they later came to check gas and there was a serious leak he looked at me and his words were 'do you relise love your lucky your here' apparently the heat swelled the pipe and it must have burst after the fire
scarey thought huh
im managing just about with drying washing and kids are going to school
i dont want anyone to take the kids for a while but thats just how im feeling
courtney is brilliant i broke down at the school yesterday and her teacher was ever so nice about it and hugged me which is something i really needed and she told courtney to look after me so when the kids start being naughty she hugs me and says 'im telling my teacher they are being mean' and when the tears start shes there for a hug
i want and need my life back so desperatly
ill update when possible alone with 10 aint a fun job believe me

[Val]

Good to read that you are at least starting to get things sorted, try to keep as cheerful as poss. Have a cyber hug!!! (((hug))) ;D

Val